i realized that the feelings were so raw and real, which made it harder to express 

 the heart doesn’t rest easy 

at the end of the day, you’re just doing it for you. it isn’t for me. i dread it so much, the thought of having to spend time alone with you. how did it come to this? 

each time i think that maybe i’m too harsh and i should let my guard down, your actions only show to me that i made the right decision. but this decision is also filled with guilt and regret. 

 how do you draw from a well that is empty?

i feel that everyone wants a piece of me, but I feel so empty and overwhelmed and i don’t feel like there’s anything more that i can give. yet, it feels like it’s required of me and i cannot do any differently. so i trudge on even though inside i’m screaming  

i really do feel that i can’t breathe. 

what do you do when a relationship has broken down and fallen into such disrepair and there doesn’t seem to be a way to come back from it?

where once there was enthusiasm about things, factoring the person into plans, prioritizing the person’s well-being. now all that’s left is a sense of obligation. 

this was never the kind of relationship i wanted. it leaves a bitter taste in the mouth and a heaviness in the heart. 

but there’s no going back too. i don’t want to go back to how it was in the past. i don’t even want to try or make any effort to do so. 

it’s like the heart has been stabbed a thousand times. how do you ever recover from something like that? 

when every word you says feel empty because you know there’s nothing you can do that can make the situation better. 

life is cruel, so so cruel